Today I freed a black-eyed Susan
from a vine.
The slight tendril twisted about
the flower’s stalk, bending the plant
in a long, dreary arch toward the ground.
It is a small thing, to set a flower free.
In the great cycle of a forest’s growth
and decay, I do not know if it matters.
I do know this black-eyed Susan
now feels the sun on its face
instead of its back,
it no longer hovers over
brown leaf litter but
bobs under the blue of the sky.
And for this moment, my
breath comes easy.
Image by Jeremy Mann
I have made mistakes.
I have misplaced my keys.
In a moment of wild abandon,
I have misappropriated the rent money.
I have misattributed
a smart thought to myself
and mishandled important conversations.
I have missed the bus, and twice, my plane.
I have misaligned my loyalties
and the decimal in my checkbook.
I have mis-stepped and landed on my face ~
literally and figuratively.
Yet, -mis, you miscreant,
Upon one event
your language misconstrues:
I did not miscarry my baby.
image by Casey Barber
Under the luminous moon
of the equinox, I travel this
quiet New England byway.
Behind me, a small possum sits
in a twist of brush and bramble.
She’s praising Something
– herself, fate, or God -
for running the gauntlet
of my tires; how she did it
is a question for minds
bigger than hers or mine.
Yet I’ve told her story out of turn:
First were frantic breaths
and heaving tremors
as she recalled her maze of terror:
the swirling black teeth,
the cold asphalt on her pads,
the shocking graze of metal against
her coarse coat.
.
It's a shame that possums
are solitary animals.
No one was there, watching
wide-eyed and breathless;
No one was there, applauding
the blind luck and dumb moves
that got her to the other side.
I drive on.
North of me, at the end of another road,
a dark sentinel gazes into blackness;
where horizon meets the sea,
Cadillac Mountain waits for the sun.
I return.
It's pre-dawn, fourth of July;
you slumber in your sleeping bag
as I pass under festive banners
on my way to the trail.
I stumble up the mountain
to wait for the sunrise, my soul
bounding and rebounding
against your world’s low atmosphere.
I arrive in the final opaque moments;
others are here too:
in pairs in groups in close proximity.
We wait, and I wrap my arms
around myself.
There was nothing I could do
to stop that certain light;
the urge to bolt seized like a spasm,
and I tumbled across, blind and careless,
careening into coldness,
into tangle, into truth.
No one saw me when I crossed over;
the clapping I heard was not for me,
but for the first rind of light that sent
shimmers across the waters.
I sat, far into the new day,
breathing the air
and blinking at the light.
That night,
while everyone watched fireworks,
I embraced Independence Day.
In loving memory of Iva LaRue
As the Israelites traveled through the desert wilderness, the presence of God was manifest in a cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night. Exodus 13:22
In the summer of 1982
God sat at a card table,
poodles at her ankles,
cocked cigarette in hand,
setting her nine cards
in vast array.
The summer of '82
was slow and hot and humid,
and we traveled through
the days card by card,
pacing ourselves by
trumpeted proclamations
Let’s Make a Deal!
Wheeeeeel ooofff Fortune!
and the whispers of
Luke and Laura.
When the news ended,
when the last card played,
when the air was thick and stale,
and we were tired of each other,
I trudged away, smelling of smoke,
and entered my
quiet house. If anyone
was there, they knew
I had been with God.
Every morning, I’d return,
crossing the wasteland,
my house to God’s,
to sit before the altar
of three channels
and eat toast to
the happy banter of others
Good Morning, America.
The incense of tobacco,
bright and fragrant,
rose into the crisp
morning air, air
cleansed by the
light of the moon.
Sometimes God thundered
about daughters-in-law.
Sometimes God quaked
about the silent phone line,
the boys who seldom called.
Sometimes God wept
for the sins of the family,
and sometimes God spoke
in a still small voice,
It’s going to be ok, honey
Oh baby, I’m so very sorry
An ember by night,
the Cloud of Presence by day,
In the wandering wilderness
of that season,
God Was.
Last night I took a poem to bed;
We nestled neatly like a couplet.
I buried my nose in the soft curve
At the nape of his sturdy neck.
Near dawn I slipped from our rest,
His letters inked across my breasts.
I could've known him had I lingered longer,
Had I only let his devices grow stronger.
He offered it all to me, I know,
But I prefer the obvious.
His lines are lost on a girl like me,
seduced by drive-through intimacy.
Image by: The Galek Sea
In the sleeply upsun
I listen for your hustlegrind
and await the sockstep
stairslide back to me.
I reach for the
presspalm heatseep
and we recline,
shoulderhip: shoulderhip,
as the slipdown bitterblack
nudges us into morning.
Amidst curtainbreeze sunslant,
we twistlimb and dayfloat,
my hands drawing through
your deepthirstywaters.
Photo art by Tom Branch
Letting go is like
Letting go of honey,
or letting go of dirt
under your fingernails after
an afternoon in the garden
Letting go is like
dropping a hot-handled skillet,
the imprint bubbled into your palm.
Or it is like lingering.
It is losing the scent
from a lover’s pillow.
It is the slow melt.
It is marking each labored breath
while feeling the planet’s rotation
under your feet.
Letting go is like blowing
a dandelion into the wind,
a contrary wind,
that whisks tiny tailed wisps
up your nostrils
under your eyelids
and into your ears.
Letting go is artless wretchedness.
There’s no beauty in it:
It is a roll in the mud and
a stumble through the briars.
But when you emerge,
your dented grace
and seedling peace
will be enough.
He remembers how, when the last guests left,
the house settled in to stillness, and how his
Mother sat on the porch swing, quiet hands folded,
pushing back and forth into the silent night.
The pendulum of time always moved, forward,
forward, but his father was snared
In the backward drag, and for that he was
serving the life sentence of a single moment.
His boyhood memories were cubed in ice,
frozen with his father in time;
They drifted behind him, an azure iceberg
heavy with the treachery of love.
He was brave on sunny days, letting the
ice thaw only until his tears flowed;
Then he ran for coldness, knowing the danger
of losing any solid ground he’d found.
The memories of his father were death and life,
joy and pain, the terrible weight of knowing
The man was gone who strummed a guitar
in the moonlight to sing him to sleep.
The man was gone who played bathtub boats
and soaped his hair into trollish peaks.
The man was gone who gave him a wild
kitten that pounced on his feet as he slept.
The man was gone who laughed when he set
their worms free to wriggle into the forest floor.
The man was gone who held his hand as they walked
back to the camp with an empty fishing pail.
The man was gone who crashed with him against the
waves and chased crabs with seaweed brooms.
The boots, bandannas, and handcuffs were gone,
along with shrieks of ambush and retreat.
In that last round of cowboys, he'd slipped a silver pistol from the man’s nightstand, and lay in wait.
His hands still feel the tight trigger and the
startling recoil; his eyes see again the falling bandit;
His whoops of victory echo in his ears,
as his body tumbles anew into the rush forward
To arrest and bring the outlaw to justice,
in the moment the West was lost.
The days that followed passed like shuffled cards before him.
He dressed slowly for the funeral, taking from the peg
The tie his father gifted him, tied in a careful knot
by the man’s hands. He laced the shoes that
Shone from the quick sure strokes of his father’s
lesson; the ink yet fading from his hands.
He remembers the start of that day and the ending,
and nothing else, save the tie clutched against his throat,
And when he slipped it off, the pressure remained.
He undressed before his mirror, loathing the reflection.
Ten years had passed, and the tie still hung from a peg,
his small shoes laid to rest against the baseboard.
He couldn’t find his way out, remembering and
forgetting, equally matched, fighting for ground.
His citadel of ice loomed always in the background,
sounding off in deep groans and hissing whispers.
If he were to set it adrift, he’d lose his twist of happiness
and anguish, the only thing he had left of his father.
There he sat, on his small patch of land, a young man with his
iceberg, getting accustomed to frost, slowly merging into blue.
-Chali Davis
I’m trying to set up this tent in
the dark.
Not city dark,
Not country dark,
Wilderness Dark.
I’m trying
to line these wiggling
poles up with the tent seams.
I’m trying
to hold this flashlight between
my cheek and shoulder.
I’m trying
to get this impossible
rain tarp in place.
I’m trying to be happy and patient.
I’ve tied my children to trees.
They’re calling me
to untie them
so they can help.
I’m trying to do this myself, and I will.
It’s a good thing I tied them
Up Tight
so if they fall asleep they
Won’t
Fall
Over.
I’m trying to
drive these anchors into rocks,
or some close stony relatives
and ignore the name Rex just called Syd.
I’m trying to fling our food
over this branch, fifteen feet
above our heads so the bears
don’t eat Kate for breakfast.
I’m trying to set up this camp
so I can untie my children
and lead them straight
to the tent and zip them in.
I’m trying to
put the sleeping bags on places without roots or rocks
and I’ve done so for everyone but me.
We sleep. They sleep. I try.
I awake.
My children are outside, unroped, in the light.
Something big is going on.
I try to listen. I cannot hear words.
Hushed tones of astonishment,
admiration. A large splash.
Whoops and hollers.
I try to figure out
why the ranger didn’t tell me
there was a drop
off, 60 feet,
into the lake
on the border
of my campsite.
I try to figure out
how I set up the tent
five feet from the edge
and didn’t fall in.
I try not to think of how
I tied my three children to trees
On
the
edge
of a cliff.
